Current location:	Bedroom
Current mood:	depressed
Current music:	John Hiatt - Have a Little Faith In Me

Six Months...
I am far too weary
Full of memories
That I cannot contain
Reminded always
Of love lost
On a cold winter night
Of the fights
The pleading
The nightmares
Of seeing him walk away


I stand in the shower
Desperately trying
To erase him from me
To scrub away every touch
Every word
Every desire sated
And all the ones that
Were left wanting
Until my skin is raw
And the water runs red

I lay in bed
Empty and alone
As the day that marked
Six months
Passes away unnoticed
Because he no longer
Lies at my side
He no longer warms me
With his love
With his presence

I realize that
This feeling, this ache
The pain that burrows
Deep into my heart
Is mine always
And so I nuture it
Harden myself
Against the coming light
Against any
Who would try to have me

Take this as a warning: my heart is mine alone
With a barrier I have made, hard as any stone